Swinging back and forth!

The past 2 weeks have been a roller coaster ride for me. It all started with me and my preparation of the 20 minute "TED TALK" that we were asked to do. When I first heard it, about a month and a half ago, I secretely never thought I'll get this far. So I surprised my own self when I wrote my name in the slot to do the presentations. After the exasperation of the first one, I had this great feeling " Yes, I can do it".. types. After the 2nd and 3rd also went off reasonably well, I had this thought... " Maybe I am moving from unconscious incompetence to conscious competence! It was indeed an exciting thought... An exciting place to be in. Then again suddenly, yesterday I had this thought " Akeela, you still don't know anything". Being me, I soon changed that thought to " You still have a lot to learn". Yes, this is a much more relaxing thought...it eases a lot of stress. But I kind of enjoyed this roller coaster ride within me. Although at this stage, the phase of unconscious competence seems a distant reality...I for now am content with my progress so far and excited about what has to follow.